*=The Pessimist=*
In the past few days Ive been having lots of fun and Ive never felt better.......
but today its feels like evrthings going down ....I cant really put my finger on it but it just feels that way .....first Of all .....My craft.ever since I finished that blue painting .. I Havent been able to create something new .....Grrr.....I mean how the HELL am I supposed to let my feelings out!?!??!
I find myslef Bursting into song at one time then wanting to cry at another......
I think I' ve got an EMO overload.....woa....Painting /drawing Poetry ,those are the three things I can do Best.....You probably cant imagine how Worthless I feel now......I hate not being able to inspire and to create......I feel DEAD.....I feel like theres a hole in my chest and icy cold water is flowing through it ......T-T .....I dont get it .....
Second .....My grades...argh ....I stayed up tilll 3am for this one project ...it was for this contest thing.....and guess who won ...the biggest suck up in class.....Fantastic.....T-T......
I ended up second best once again ,and won absolutely NOTHING .......
and this week One quiz after the other ...it just hit me today that ive wasted all of them ....I failed all of my first Quizzes...and Im falling way behind In chemistry......
and In math......
AND!!!! I got my report card ..and it said that i was in danger of taking summer classes ....and getting kicked out.Because of "tardy" marks...got a D ......
My teachers a poo head.......
ahhh.....
last ........My friends in class......Just PERFECT ...Thers this couple that broke up a few months ago and they were still at war till monday.....well they had a fight againI ened up in the middle cause of the guy ....he pulled me in ......and being me, I did try to help ...after a while he wouldnt stop whining ...so i just let go of the both of them .....People can be so stupid....
oh the same guy and his bestfriend......arghh...thetyre fighting as well being their best girl-friend
I had to at least try and fix it....well thers no conclusion for that yet ......
Drama Drama Drama .......I hate it ........
Im so sick of this.....I fell like life is running me over with a steamroller for fun........
theres ust too much drama with my friends that sometimes i feel like id rather be a loner ...haha......
anyway everyday I just fin myself drowing in music and falling alseep ...thats all i wanna do ...fal asleep ....
fOrever.........
I'D kill to be happy though ......
can you make me happy? anyone??
T-T