+This In Your Misery+

One so clean and innocent at births time ,
flooded with dreams,colours,
and a vision of life naive.
with beauty and amazement in every flower,
and sheer fascination with icons of power.

A few years passed,the time has come .
for the earth to poison its own son.
His first heartfelt tears fall
while others drunk on sorrow, take no notice.

A decade or so the heart strikes fast,
He falls in love and it is broken at the last.
his life flys by his heart gone insane ,
from the pain of loneliness
he could not escape.

This i have no idea what it is . all i know i wrote it during our physics class. i couldnt understand a single thing coming out of that womans mouth. buti didnt want to fall asleep in class , so i doodled. doodles led to ideas, ideas lead to long questions and so on . ahehe . whateva.
ahehe ...
im very insecure about my poetry but i kind of want to share it soooo... just go easy on the critique when your going to comment on this entry ahahah...

Am feeling a bit thrown away , because i am not asked to design and do art crap in school as much as i was before... maybe because theres a VA (visual arts) class in school and they found out the drawings that i make are fucking easy to make ahaha.

i dont know if its just me feeling anwanted or unneeded but, I am starting to loose confidence in my art again.I just dont feel like drawing anymore. unless I'm realy down or angry .
but everytime I start a peice it never gets finished. There are so many unfinished peices scattered in my room. i mean am i loosing my touch or something? ahheeheh...

maybe I just need something or someone to inspire me ...
ive been lacking a great deal of spirit lately . the only things helping me move on are coffe and giant helpings of sugar .... ahah.


hmm...things better be lookin up soon ... or else someones gonna loose a head. ahah ....

+holy fish grease+

i feel like screaming all the time now, cuz of the stress from skool.im a little sad now since my visual arts Prof. said that he expected better from me ...i did of myself as well ... we made a small mock-up of a figure he drew on the board and mine didnt look so hot...DX
and that hardly encourages me to enter that jewelry design contest he asked me to join ...

i volunteered to help design the yearbook like an assistant for one of the people in charge ... but then i ended up drawing designs for every section of the committee, and thats a lot o work since the teacher in charge of everything is sooo meticulous about it ... so im usually told to draw three or four diff designs every other day... and that comes along with all the quizzes and homeworks projects and college applications and write ups and lots of other things ... Whew ... i wish i could stop the world for just two days,to get my head straight ... ahahha