Little boy box and self mutilation

I FINALLY got my tongue peirced. after all those years of waiting its so liberating!! haha ..but shhhhh... my parents dont know.. tee hee ...Its insane!! I like how it looks I like having something to play around with in my mouth. I like that i have another acessory to play with... i just love it!
when after its completely healed im gonna name it then marry it!! hahah ... i think bertha is a gewd name ahahah .. =P

AbOuT Th3 PoEm!!
I wrote this in my journal out of boredom and my weird crazy mind thoughts ... or maybe I was high on air then...or extremely Emo about God knows what haha... anyway these tiny little poems seem to sprout out of my head during reaaaally boring math lessons....This was supposed to come with small illustrations (which wouldve made the whole thing easier to understand) but my scanner is still broken *sigh*. and I'm still checking if the older scanner thats been collecting dust on our top shelf still works.
anyway . its weird but it plays out well in my head .... so bleh! =P

*Little boy box*

Little boy box all hollow inside , he needed a heart , so i did provide.
I gave him a smile, eyes made of glass,
and a part of my heart beting steady but fast.

Happy was he,for he could see,
the one who loved him ,
that one was me.
We danced and we kissed with his cardboard lips,
till i slowly felt my own heart tilt.

"could he love me on his own?" i asked myslef,
and went to see him on his wooden shelf.

inside him i saw my heart beating free.
I said "this cannot be
this tiny heart came from me"
"His love isnt genuine it cannot be true
if he had little of my heart would it not be loving me too?"

i weeped and sobbed, i could finally see,
that little boy box could never love me.
my tears filled the room ,till it flooded then i stopped.
and noticed little boy box all sogged up ...

There was nothing left, just my heart,
there was no life, there was no breath,
just my silence and his death