PASSION

My classmate asked me a week ago if i wanted to hire an agent . . and that his sister is offering...
"She said your good and she can help you get public"my friend said with a giant smile across his face....he probably thought i was going to make money with my art... as much as i wanted to ,i had to decline from their offer, i simply felt i had too much on my plate as it is. I'm already falling behind in school ,what more if i had to look after that and being pressured to make more art...it would just be a little too much for me to handle...though its killing me inside that only a few people see my art and less actually appreciate it...the thing is i love doing this . its my life ....but Im scared that i might ruin my academic life . . .argh . . .all i know now is that im real confused. .. .

oh another thing . . .the fact that im actually going to SELL my art dosent feel right . . . .it'll feel like im selling my soul...i cant do that either . . . .so my friend suggested that i make art just for the gallery . . . .i thought about it . . . .and i asked myslef HOW?? my art comes from my soul my heart...if i make it just for the sake of making it its not art its an empty picture on a peice of paper or canvas.....isnt it....i mean art is not art if there is no soul put into it, for example i may not be the most skilled artist ,-but i do have enough to be able strongly express my emotions. . .when i am able to show when Im down ,angry,happy or in LOVE!! <3
But someone who could probably draw the perfect anatomy of a man or design cars and draw landscapes... but,ignores the feelings that come to him during the creation of his peice . .its end up empty and worthless...."Art" you see hanging in dental offices /gg

So my art is a part of me...I cant just let go of the peices I make .. . selling them is . . selling myslef.... to be honest i do not mind if i dont make "good" money...I just want my art to be seen,understood and appreciated...
so yeah . . Ive confused myself once again . . .*hugz*