. . . .SCARED . . .

There are things happening to me these days that just makes me want to jump around going weeee . .but there are more things that just make me want to dissappear . . . .

the other day i got bit by a stray dog. . i tell myslef that nothings going to happen to me . . .
but then i started feeling pain near the area of the bite. .. . rabies???. . . i dont know but still. .I got so scared. . .the kind of scared when you just want someone to hug you . . .
When i got home today my mother reminded me about my surgery . . for my impacted teeth ,i know it isnt exactly life threatening but i have never had surgery before so . .yes . .it also scares the poo poo out of me...
Another thing is school,as usual our english teacher gave us an extremly hard assignment,and my groupmates are all looking at me to do something . .even though i am the mos clueless person there . . .and all the other teachers as well,dumped a giant heap of homework. .for us to do. . *anger*
I am also stuck artistically . . i cant draw anymore to save my lfe !!!. .
my only way to ventilate my feelings isnt even working anymore. .this stuff dosent happen to me . . . .drawing stuf, kept me from going insane ,now i cant even get my head straight. . .Im scared . . .

theres also this feeling like something horrible is going to happen . . and i cant shake it off . . .i try to get high on chocolate . . .it dosent work ,when it always worked before . . .ive had 4 hours of sleep in two days . . .I dont know Whats happening anymore. . . .i feel so Lost. . .

T-T i need a hug badly *hugs pillow* . . . .
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. i wrote this this morning

I confide in your heart
its glow and warmth ,
oh so divine
save me with your touch
rescue me with your smile . .. .

Heaven and hell have no divide,
and the only bliss I see is your light,
I sleep in death on your shoulder ,
I wake with love in your embrace