+Harvest+

Throughout this year ...all i have been doing is helping my friends with their "problems" and giving them adivce..etc.... i also noticed i didnt really give enough time for myslef ... i let my own life go into a downward spiral ...Until about a month ago .. I couldnt beleive that my life was quite unfair .. i gave and helped ... well..i honestly tried my best to help people. butt all i got in return was .. a big fat ... nothing ...for a while my motto went back to ... "Lifes a bitch then, you die"(used previously") ... "positive" aint it ?! My mind was always noisy ...i was always exauhsted.. and sleepless....and that dosent really include the stress from schoolwork!! erg....Highschools a real bitch ... especuially that my friends have graduated T__T and I am left to scurry among the pools of people who dont really unserstand meh ... i think some of them were actually scared of me .. ?!? whaaa??.... okay ... *ehem* back to the point ... CSA is a total HelLHolE!! *ehem*I have no sense of belongingness there at all .........-__-'

yeah ...a few weeks before .. i felt things were getting lighter .. I made lots of new friends (Zlackers still the BesT tho') ... who at least tried to understand me .. aeheh ... (forgiveable...I hardly understand myslef anyway) I felt my heart got a lot less heavy.. i wasnt as angry as i was before ... and it seemed that the help i have given to my friends was reciprocating... ^__^....
and also ....someone Ive been interested in is my squeeeshy feesh now!!! nyahahahah alhough my grades are still kind of ... errr.. down there ... the other aspects of my life are all bright and happy hence the bright and happy art ...*gleeeee* .....^______^